I didn't give up faith, I'm pretty proud of that
But there were times so rough I had many doubts
This life is full of ups and downs
Try to trade a smile for my frown
I'm just trying to hang on
I know with you I can be strong
You're so good to me,
Patient when I don't believe
I'm climbing out of this dark, lonely hole
Moving towards the light is my only goal
This is known as “the most wonderful time of year,” but it is not so wonderful for those who are spending their first Christmas single after a failed marriage. 8 years ago, I spent my first Christmas alone after filing for divorce, and it was not easy. I didn’t want anything to do with couples, love, or “perfect” Mormon families. And it’s not because I wasn’t happy for the success and joy of those I cared about. The reality of my new situation (single again at 23 with an 18 –month old) was even more difficult to face during this season of love, family, and joy. Seeing the happiness of others caused my heart to physically hurt and was a painful reminder of “what could have been”.
If this is your first Christmas single again, I have 5 simple steps to surviving- and maybe even enjoying this holiday season.
© Cami Sullivan
Supporting Divorced Christian Women with Faith
A Plan For Happiness